Those anxious moments are behind me... Atleast for now

I know there r going to be many instances in my life when I'm going to say this... "Phew.. It was tough.. Thankfully I wont have to go through it again..." Only to land back into the same spot very soon... I've said that after my first board exam( We had our first when we were in Std. 7th... Most of u must be forthrightly dismissing me as some kinda "publicity pervert" who revels in the shock value of his exaggerated utterances.. But my friends who've studied in Karnataka will know..) I've said that after the nerve wracking experience after every competition.. I've said that after the first time I tried to bell the dreaded CAT last year..

And here I'm saying it all over again.. This year though, wasn't exactly a tear-hair affair.. It was something more than that.. Having scored a decent percentile last year was no consolation either. The bag of expectations(or I'd rather say the knapsack ) I was carrying, was heavier this year with dollops of sympathy("Poor guy, couldn't make it to A B or C last year"), a modicum of awe("Dude, u crazy??? U r giving up on the other 3 calls u got??") and oodles of loathing ("Dunno what he thinks of himself.. There's no way he can repeat his last year's performance.. Forget going beyond that").. People have called me all sorts of names for trying to go after an elusive bird in the bush which was like a mile away, than being contented with the three I had in hand. But then, that's me.. I took a gamble as I thought I'd be able to bridge the distance between the metaphorical cup and lip this year..

I'm very happy to have performed well this time around. But as the mother of all competitive exams draws to a close this year, I have my apprehensions regarding the credibility of the test.. Some people either haven't been able to do well despite preparing well or haven't been able to write the test altogether, thanks to the "new age testing software" developed by the Prometric guys and the world class testing facilities provided by the IIMs. My heart goes out to
those affected. But I happened to be one of the lucky few who didn't have to face hassles during the test. Seriously, I would like to thank the Almighty for the same.

Now that I'm through with it, I feel I couldn't have done any better.. With a sigh of relief, I await the next exam to come along.. And the torrid times to come with the wait for the announcement of results. But till then, I can definitely afford a stretch, a yawn and some rest.. My beleaguered mind which has been sinking in taunts and fighting back an occasional tear, surely needs it..